Well it seems that the Elephant we had has finally left the room. Yes we are finally going home, back to the land of the long white cloud, that’s New Zealand if you hadn’t of guessed. After 3 years of ranting, raving and the odd door slamming, all by me of course, the decision has been made and we leave in November.
So yes, I have finally got what I wanted. Am I jumping up and down with excitement? Hmmm, well not yet anyway and I am not sure when the excitement will kick in! After spending all of last week in limbo, not knowing what was happening and then being told all of a sudden we need to be out there for 21st November, well it has left me a bit shell shocked to be honest. Hence the lack of blogging last week, I just couldn't think about anything else! I had always envisaged that I would have months to pack up 10 ½ years of memories and possessions plus the boys, not 6 weeks. But hey ho, these things happen, just need to tell myself that 6 weeks is plenty of time and make sure I don’t sit back and procrastinate about everything that needs to be done.
So my biggest worry is that I have been looking thru rose tinted glassed for the last 3 years, that it is not going to live up to my expectations! That we are going to wrench the boys away from all they know and it’s going to be a disaster. I am just hoping that it is the best move for the family especially for the boys, otherwise it will be the worse decision I have ever pushed to be made, and that is saying something. I have no doubt that it will be tough for Mr P and me to settle back. Especially as we left as 30 something’s, wanting to travel and take on the world and going back as 40 something’s, tired and worn out with two little people to look after. Neither of us are from Auckland so new friends will need to be made by all of us, schools sorted for the boys, a whole new city to discover and find our way round. I will even have to eventually look for a job.
But that is all immaterial when I think that the boys will finally get to spend time with their grandparents, get to know their cousins, aunties and uncles. Get to know all the people that make up the extended families that they belong to.
It's has to be the right decision doesn't it??